Hello new year: a reflection.
My New Years’ reflection: I felt compelled to right this, after all of these confusing phases and transitions I’ve gone through in this past year: 2016. I graduated high school in June with a 3-month term au pair job in Italy awaiting for me in September. I flew all the way to Italy and leaving a week later, realizing I was very homesick, culture-shocked, and was in a very confusing time in my life. I came home. Still trying to figure myself out, I applied for a retail job…I quit before my first day on the job because I was confused and miserable and deep down inside, I really did not want to work there. I think that’s when I hit bottom. But, through clearing my mind, being completely honest with myself, and my boyfriend Michael talking some sense into me, I’ve discovered that all of this non-sense bullshit I’ve been putting myself through is procrastination. I’ve always knew what I was truly passionate about, but I had that whole fear of success/fear of failure going on. So, as hard as it was, I put an end to the bullshit procrastination and started putting all of my effort towards what really matters. I’m prioritizing.
Fast forward a little bit, and I got an amazing callback for my first big TV audition. I got signed with my first talent agency last week. I started my blog and my Youtube channel, finally, and doing some work for it every single day. I’m eating healthy and doing yoga.
I personally think new years resolutions and the labeling of time in ‘years’ is bullshit, but it just so happens that the realization in my life occurred in a year called 2016 and I hope that 2017, 2018, 2019…and all of the years after that welcome more realizations, growth, and success. I’m so grateful for every good/bad* decision I’ve made this year. I’m grateful to have Michael’s support and love. I’m grateful for family. And I’m grateful for all of the memories.
Awareness and growth will welcome in the new year, respectively. Happy new years!
* there is no such thing as good or bad, as it’s just a label